i finally did something i’ve never done before. went to a doc in a box and begged for antibiotics. i developed a fever and symptoms of a sinus infection and went from bad to worse. my wonderful husband even came home early from work (which is super tricky with his job) so he could drive me.
and now, angels are singing.
i still can’t breath out my nose, and there is a death rattle in my chest, and i can’t lay horizontally without coughing up a lung, but yesterday i actually did dishes. and a load of laundry. and only let my children watch two hours of netflix instead of…oh… i can’t bring myself to tell you how many.
now the kids and the husband are out in the back yard, hunting for roly-polies while i sip my fiftieth cup of hot lemon juice, apple cider vinegar and honey concoction in peace.
there is light at the end of this mucus-filled tunnel.
i can’t remember the last time i was this sick. i think it’s just a cold, but my throat and chest have never hurt this bad. i even had the brief thought that my coughing was going to send me into labor…and i haven’t slept in four nights.
so, lots of tea, honey, and netflix today.
my mom was just here for the weekend. i had to attend an “at home care” class for the birth center, and she came down to watch the kiddos while husband worked. i totally take her for granted. i didn’t have to do laundry or cook or give the kids a bath the whole time. (not to mention that she helped me unpack and organize my entire house.) she is a wonderful, creative and patient grandmother and my kids are obsessed with their “mimi”.
now i just want her to come back and feel my forehead.
…are the best.
and make me want more siblings.
i am still a bit overwhelmed with moving and unpacking and desperately finding a good preschool in our new neighborhood before all the spots fill up for next year. i’ll right about it one day…in the mean time, here are some tidbits about my children.
* any time lucy coughs, she quickly says “i’m alright” before anyone has a chance to ask.
* if you ask either child what the baby’s name is, they say “pepe” (their name for my dad)
* lucy is in the midst of a serious “why?” phase. all day long, many many times a day. one time, after being asked “why?” about five hundred times, oliver got right in her face and yelled, “stop saying why, lucy!!!” although rude, it was my sentiments exactly.
* oliver has started coming home from school singing songs that he’s learned (after not talking about a single thing he’s learned all year) one is a song we did every day when i was teaching kindergarten and it have me warm and fuzzy flash backs.
* oliver has a double ear infection and is on antibiotics. i have never seen a kid so excited about taking his medicine. he asks me for it multiple times a day and does a little happy dance every time i bring it out.
* the siblings’ favorite game to play right now involves lucy laying on the floor and oliver jumping over her. i know that this is going to end in disaster one day but it provides lots of entertainment and belly laughs from both.
love these kids.
my daughter has this amazing quality. boldness.
whenever we are at a park, or anywhere with other people for that matter, she’ll go up to anyone remotely her size, plant herself right in front of them and ask, “what your name?”
half the time little kids just stare at her, open mouthed.
so she repeats herself.
"what your name?" and she won’t leave until she gets an answer.
i think i used to be like that, as a child. unafraid, not concerned one iota about what people thought of me, and wanting to play with anyone in the world.
and slowly, the years ground away that boldness and friendliness and replaced it with self-doubt and judgement.
but tomorrow we move. a new community, a new start, a new chance. to reclaim that boldness. and to make new friends. so, i just need to follow lucy’s example and start with one simple question…
"what’s your name?"
* i hold my breath the entire snowboard half pipe run.
* with no kids in the house, the silence makes me crazy. i’ve been making my way through npr’s “this american life” podcast archives or singing every word to every song on my pandora counting crows station that come straight from my high school days.
* packing sucks.
* it’s amazing how much easier it is to pack when i can leave the scissors and sharpie laying around at any level and not have to worry about small fingers snatching them. it’s the little things.
* we’ve had dinner on the couch in front of the tv every night the kids have been gone.
* the two things are i am most excited about our new house are a back yard and NO STAIRS!!!
* we had our valentine’s date last night, went to see “once” at the theater and it was amazing. i love my valentine.
kids are gone for three whole days so i can finish packing the house.
someone is very happy to have me all to himself.
don’t worry. i’ll start packing again in a minute…or two.
six months with oliver. almost four years ago.
six months with number three. where’d that tiny bump go?